my conscience
conscience: hi hid. how are u?
hid:i am fine.
c:how was your day?
h:wonderful.i dragged the lovebirds to the national library at bras basah today.which was kinda sucky...the rules and regulations...hmm...then we had a gd talk all the way from bugis to cck and then to teck whye...talked a lot...
c:nice...so what did y'all talk abt?
h:a lot...everything under the sun...abt my grp mate which they were very lucky to meet at bugis..."pretty" i say..."gorgeous" say fina.ham kept to himself.hehe...obsessive compulsion.guys,i know y'all are reading this.i don't know...its like...this girl before me is somewhat just so...wonderful,if i may say so...gorgeous(i wonder why her ex broke up with her.)...smart...hardworking...nice...it has been sooo long that i have a gut feeling about someone.oh no...i just realized that the last time i had that feeling,it ended up...severed...diyanah...rmbr?yeah...haiz...i dunno ah guys...I AM NOT FALLING IN LOVE WITH HER in case y'all start thinking nonsense.but its more like an admiration.makes u wonder(i do,anyway)...why can't i be like her?and the fact that she calls herself a tomboy...it just seems so farfetched to me...someone like her cun be a tomboy...or maybe that was last time...then by the time she come nus she's a drop dead gorgeous lass...haiz...someone(not u ima,fina,ham!) break my heart.reject me because i'm not feminine enough.but...impt question...do i even want to change?i don't know.i think...the reason why i never change is because i want someone to notice me for what i am now...and...gah...if i say it out y'all will say things that i have long expected to hear.like...dun be so hard on myself?right?raise up ur hand if u'll say that to me.and don't lie.
unnoticed....a very2 gd friend raised that up just now."hid,i wonder...how come no one noticed u?"...and another very2 gd friend answered something like...not being friendly enough?gosh...is friendliness subjective?i mean...gah...i want to say but i also dun want to say.because if i say,i know what y'all will say back.so...forget it...i'm not saying anything.
oh fina my dear,thx for the compliment.i mean it.thank you.if only i get that from...someone else.i can only hope.
hammy my daddy,u asked,i answer.irwan's horoscope:virgo.that is...if what he put in friendster is true...
thats all folks...no point i think about this too much...gets me nowhere...i'm an unnoticed unwanted unattractive single surrounded by lovers.gimme a break.allow me to have a low self-esteem tonight.allow me to feel empty.so sue me if u're not happy with it.i'll be fine in a few days time.but tonight,let me be.
*why does looking at your picture make my heart beat hard against the ribcage? why did i even look at them in the first place? u're probably taken. guys like u...just cun be attracted to girls like me...siapalah aku berbanding dengan gadis-gadis yang lain?jangan perasan lah hid...tiada yang istimewa pada dirimu...sudahlah...*
hid:i am fine.
c:how was your day?
h:wonderful.i dragged the lovebirds to the national library at bras basah today.which was kinda sucky...the rules and regulations...hmm...then we had a gd talk all the way from bugis to cck and then to teck whye...talked a lot...
c:nice...so what did y'all talk abt?
h:a lot...everything under the sun...abt my grp mate which they were very lucky to meet at bugis..."pretty" i say..."gorgeous" say fina.ham kept to himself.hehe...obsessive compulsion.guys,i know y'all are reading this.i don't know...its like...this girl before me is somewhat just so...wonderful,if i may say so...gorgeous(i wonder why her ex broke up with her.)...smart...hardworking...nice...it has been sooo long that i have a gut feeling about someone.oh no...i just realized that the last time i had that feeling,it ended up...severed...diyanah...rmbr?yeah...haiz...i dunno ah guys...I AM NOT FALLING IN LOVE WITH HER in case y'all start thinking nonsense.but its more like an admiration.makes u wonder(i do,anyway)...why can't i be like her?and the fact that she calls herself a tomboy...it just seems so farfetched to me...someone like her cun be a tomboy...or maybe that was last time...then by the time she come nus she's a drop dead gorgeous lass...haiz...someone(not u ima,fina,ham!) break my heart.reject me because i'm not feminine enough.but...impt question...do i even want to change?i don't know.i think...the reason why i never change is because i want someone to notice me for what i am now...and...gah...if i say it out y'all will say things that i have long expected to hear.like...dun be so hard on myself?right?raise up ur hand if u'll say that to me.and don't lie.
unnoticed....a very2 gd friend raised that up just now."hid,i wonder...how come no one noticed u?"...and another very2 gd friend answered something like...not being friendly enough?gosh...is friendliness subjective?i mean...gah...i want to say but i also dun want to say.because if i say,i know what y'all will say back.so...forget it...i'm not saying anything.
oh fina my dear,thx for the compliment.i mean it.thank you.if only i get that from...someone else.i can only hope.
hammy my daddy,u asked,i answer.irwan's horoscope:virgo.that is...if what he put in friendster is true...
thats all folks...no point i think about this too much...gets me nowhere...i'm an unnoticed unwanted unattractive single surrounded by lovers.gimme a break.allow me to have a low self-esteem tonight.allow me to feel empty.so sue me if u're not happy with it.i'll be fine in a few days time.but tonight,let me be.
*why does looking at your picture make my heart beat hard against the ribcage? why did i even look at them in the first place? u're probably taken. guys like u...just cun be attracted to girls like me...siapalah aku berbanding dengan gadis-gadis yang lain?jangan perasan lah hid...tiada yang istimewa pada dirimu...sudahlah...*
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