Death

Death Is Here

Like you all knew, I was in camp. I was lepaking with my Teacher Officers Mr Izwandy and Miss Sharon in the canteen, talking about everything under the ceiling. Okie, cut the crapz when I received an sms from Ira.

Bapak has gone. . .

Thats when I freaked out myself and started getting cold feet till cold head. The shiver chill rose from my feet, tingle up my back right into my head. I tot I can feel my ear so cold when I was putting my hp near my ear when I tried to call her many times after receiving the sms.

She didnt pick it up neither did she answered it. Then after a few seconds, she called me back and she was sobbing real hard.. about 20 seconds gitu, she hang up on me. All We both exchanged were tears. I didnt cry but when I heard she crying, i cried too on the phone.

I couldnt sleep the whole night. Mr Izwandy accompanied me till 4.30am where he went off to Sleep while I still stay in Admin Room, Canteen Command Post, Parade Square and even Concourse. I was all alone with a lighter. Once I stroke it, the flame will appear.. bt after sometime either the wind blow it off or it just got smaller and gone. Just like how fragile the life is.

6.30am Big Gate is opened by Security. And I went home. I reached home, Pass the news to my dad and bro. Brother went for the Aerospace thingy and dad said it was expected to receive the news knowing how bad her dad condition is. BAH! I bathed and I nap for an hour. Woke up and went her home. She saw me and pull me into her bedroom and CRIED all she can in my hug! Geez.. MY tears just started flowing down but that I do not call it crying. I just feel for her. I know how she felt. And it is AS IF i am going through this whole process all over again almost 6 yrs ago. After I checked on her, And her family members started flowing in, I have to go .. There were too many people. I told her, if she need me, she can call me. I will be nearby at my workplace. Need to inform the pizza hut peeps who were close to her and we were close.

Then at 12 plus, NPCC peepz coming and so I joined them for it. I was shocked with what I saw.

I was at the opposite block and this is what I saw. The mayat will be going off soon and there were so MANY PEOPLE! Too many PEOPLE! OMG! Im like going.. CRAZY! And I have to take this scene somehow. Forgive me..

After the 1 big bus left, around 10 cars left and a few bikes left for the cemetery, the place abit cool down and yeah, I found Ira with red puffy eyes and saw her mum just crying non-stop. Menyayat Hati seh. Seriously! Aizz..

After that, we sat down and I got to met and know a few people in the family who like cheer Ira up. I mean Do not make the situation any worst for anyone right now. And Ira introduce me to Baby Sirin whom I always got to know through pictures. OMG! So kiut! The light of hope for everyone at the moment coz once she gurgles or smile, everyone goes AAaaaHHH!

Let me introduce you..Baby Sirin and Babe Ima!

After that, Around 4 plus, Pizza Hut peepz Came. I was surprised and touched by their presence. I mean it was last minute and all can came for it. I mean they push aside their outing and dates to just come down and pay ira and ahid a visit and condolences to them. Ira face really lighted up to see this bunch of people walking to her house. Her house was on the first floor btw. We talked and we chatted and when they parted they gave her one big group hug (I mean the girls only..guys cannot!). Aiz.. I saw her holding back her tears.

Then I stay with her till 8 plus pm and dats when I said I go off first. Coz I was not feeling pretty well. Abit under the weather at the moment. Maybe from the lack of sleep. I was not asleep for more then 30+ hours yesterday plus the yesterday yesterday. Remember, I was from camp right?.. Haiz.. Something is stil not settle within me about this whole process. Its my bestfriend. I know very well something is not right IN her. Not the OUTSIDE. I know when we both gonna be alone, she gona really cry and cry and will need a shoulder to cry on. I promise myself I will be there for her as long as possible and as far as GOD allow me.

For now..

Semoga Tuhan mengampun segala dosa dosa Allahyarham Sairi Bin Yusri dan menrahmati Roh nya.