haven't been here in a while. just gonna put a few points down. sorry if im gonna offend anyone. really sorry. just that im not exactly having a great day or week or month or semester.

this might offend some people, but i wanna let it out anyway. honesty is my policy.

v day is 'whateVer day'. serious i just didnt have a good day. my spirits were ultra down.

here's the next thing. no one can discourage you more than a teacher can. im on the verge of giving up. im on the verge of breaking down. im tired of failing.

if there was any highlight at all for today, there was only one. the engin guy talked to me. after that, not much of point highlighting. well...actually he just asked me a question lah. but well...haiz...my spirits are so down. its like a waterfall, constantly going and falling to the ground. i didnt mention any of these. i mean i dun even blog this semester, how to complain. but im not exactly having an easy time. the only thing that is keeping me alive is the presence of all of u. and my ever delightful jebat kasturi. we're barney's dancing and singing partners.

just now i just found out some stuff. first, there's a fee hike for ppl in my sch. and the hike made me notice just how expensive my education is. as of next academic year, i'll be paying like $12, 200 for my education. it just hit me that i am paying a lot. and it would be a waste of money if i fail. not only did i realize the expensiveness of my education, i also realized that i need to pull my socks. ppl prob think im still in sec sch because im not matured enough. where is that level of maturity in me that i, as an undergraduate, am supposed to have? haiz...

ladies and gentlemen, im sorry if i just bored, offended or hurt u. im just feeling kinda sad and discouraged right now....and i suddenly miss my grandfather....