Its The WeekenD PeoPLe!

its The WeekeNd

where are you guys? Im online and you guys are not and it is the weekend you know?!

Hid busy with school ke? Fyn busy ngan Ham ke?

Ima so busy. I must wrote this down okie.. .. .. ..

Did you guys know that I actually got the urge to rush home today after training?

I actually almost went home but the other cis said do not be a spoil sport and join them for dinner. So I go with them. I ate my meal and I was the first to go home!

I just have the URGE to go home and just lie in bed and rot in front of the tv you know!

I felt like really want to go HOME!

As in REALLY want to go home!

I just want to reach home and be in my cosy room!

Just be with my tv and do not go anywhere!

Okie. That is so NOT me! Seriously, I do not want to rush home.

I do not like to rush home when Im out.

But I think ever since my FYP has ended, I have changed a bit more.

I rather learnt that HOME is the best place now that Im not busy.

Once I am busy, I could not be rotting at home and enjoy my pleasure time!

So you see, if you guys ask me out and it is gona end late,

You will see me saying NO to you all.

I do not know why lah, I prefer just staying at home and chill alone.

Enjoy the peace and etc.

I do not tink I will get bored.

Where are you guys?Its the weekend. Geez.. Im going to watch PANAMA SURVIVOR!

I love my bed more and I cherish my free time better now!

I know once I reach the moment of working 9-5pm later on, I know I will not be able to enjoy all this leisure moments anymore.

Its gona be work,work,work,work,work,work,work,work,work,work,work,work! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Okie, one more thing I need to write down.
Im quite upset with peepz around me. I felt like they are looking down on me or something. I find the word, 'kolot', if you asked me.
Just because I want to work after getting diploma,save money and get married and have my own family. Issit something wrong of me to do this for myself? They were talking about studying and applying for degrees and etc and just further studying and when I said whats my plan. I can just felt the reactions they had for me. And It is kinda of demoralising me. And it made me think twice whtr I should continue studying instead and postpone those plan of mine of working,saving money and get married.



But I do not want that. What i really want is work,save money and get married. Issit something wrong to be this way? I do not know peepz. Like I said, it is demoralising for me on my side and i know very well that mr boyfriend has been comforting me about it and It is not helping me either. I just feel confused and sad. I just do not want to study anymore but people around me are studying. All moving forward and not being 'kolot' like me. Sometime I do not see why I should study so long and end up working shorter time and in the end stop working and be a housewife. I do not know you know.. .. ..All I want is to be a mum and a good wife to someone. And Im hoping too much and too alot and too high that that someone will be mr Fairuz. Im so freaky broken into pieces if something like that just never get into plan and happened. Coz right now, the way mr Fairuz has been treating me ever since the BIG fight last yr, he treated me like Miss Princess and Miss girlfriend of his that he just could not lose. I feel good but too much of it and IF he hurt me, I do not know the consequences of it.



I hope GOD bless this relationship of ours. :)

It is nothing wrong right to work and save money and get married?
It is not wrong right to not further study anymore?
It is not wrong to be satisfied for now for me right?

:"(.. Kolot ke aku?