. . .Let Me Pen My Thoughts And Feelins...
. . .Let Me Pen My Thoughts And Feelins...
Okie, I think Im not really going on a hiatus somehow. And after a night of thinking, I decided to pen some things down in here. Coz I dont want to repeat history where you guys will said I tend to said NVM and forget everything and etc when I actually couldnt at the point of moment.
No human will be okie when they suppose to meet but end up going home, getting nothing in hand. True? Okie, Let me pen my tots and feelings okie? And so, I was pissed off about yesterday. Seriously I was. And I didnt want to let you all know about it at that point of moment because I dont want to spoil any of your mood. I am the kind who handle this kind of feelings alone rather than affectin others eventhough they somehow play a part in it.
Okie, And so I cudnt attend the play. I felt a bit guilty about it. Coz I gave my word to Hid earlier BUT somehow my dad came into the picture and I have to run some errands at GIANT for him coz its urgent. So being the good daughter, I just have to go. I was drenched even before entering GIANT coz it was raining and I forget to bring my umbrella. Done with my shopping and found myself home by 6.15pm. So i decided why not meet them up for dinner. I assume they wont be long as in after play they can straight away meet me and we go lepak and eat.
I guess I was so wrong about it peepz. I thought by making myself presence for dinner would at least make up for not attending the play thingy. So by the time I was out of my home, I already knew Im down with FLU because of earlier drenched. But i still go, coz it is not yet serious. So by 7.30 and so, i have already reached clementi and i understand that you all are not super heroes that will fly straight to clementi to just meet me. So i walk around, one shop after another and till i ended up with no shop to go in after that. So by 8+ I asked all your whereabout and my heart really drop when I got to know you all still at NUS.
How long am i suppose to wait again this time round? One hour for you guys or two? Hey, maybe you guys never notice something about me. I just got a thing to do with punctuality. I mean Im a person who is on time. You give me that time, I make sure I will be there on time. Even if im late for a minute, I will feel so bloody shit wrong to whoever I made a date or appointment with.
So, who got the blow when Im mad at that point of time? It was Fz and Ira. Poor them. I really blew my top at them and keep asking them WHY AM I BORN TO BE WITH THIS PUNCTUALITY THINGY IN MYSELF? Why I cant be like any other typical girls who will always be late and feel not guilty about it?
I guess it is not the first time. I know I shouldnt bring things up. But I guess I should to let things all out at this point of time and to let you all know how I felt about certain things and we all get over it. Remember my birthday? Our first meet up? You all remember how long I got to wait? I have to wait for people on my birthday! Its not 15min or 20mins. Its more than that. I was already so upset than piss off. More of me wanted to go home and abandone the whole idea on that day BUT i dont know why there is just this one soft spot of me not to disappoint my friends when they already at first disappointed me.
My bf called me slenger. He dont understand why Im so stupid to still bother about such things. I told him I dont know why too. . .
So peepz, the only solution right now is that, maybe plan beforehand as in including your travelling journey and all before stating the time of meeting between us in the future. Seriously, if you guys tell me to come at this time or that time, I will be on time. SERIOUSLY. And if i really know myself that I will never be able to make it. I will tell you guys straight and be stubborn over it. Remember the joggin thingy Fina and Hid had and you both asked me along. I really pull myself out? Coz I know I surely couldnt make it and thats why I decided to just meet u all up for breakfast.
Or you want the arrangement as such you said 2pm. But I will be there only half an hour later or one hour later den the arranging time. Is that how you all think? I am not sure you know. . .
Last time, my biggest fight with Ira was about her being late almost 80% of her time with me. I really exploded at her and I stay away from her for quite some time. And I dont want the same thing to happen to us somehow.
I apologised if I wrote anything that made anyone of you unhappy.
Maybe on the bright side, You guys still enjoy yourself last night. Good to hear that. So, have a good day. . .
Okie, I think Im not really going on a hiatus somehow. And after a night of thinking, I decided to pen some things down in here. Coz I dont want to repeat history where you guys will said I tend to said NVM and forget everything and etc when I actually couldnt at the point of moment.
No human will be okie when they suppose to meet but end up going home, getting nothing in hand. True? Okie, Let me pen my tots and feelings okie? And so, I was pissed off about yesterday. Seriously I was. And I didnt want to let you all know about it at that point of moment because I dont want to spoil any of your mood. I am the kind who handle this kind of feelings alone rather than affectin others eventhough they somehow play a part in it.
Okie, And so I cudnt attend the play. I felt a bit guilty about it. Coz I gave my word to Hid earlier BUT somehow my dad came into the picture and I have to run some errands at GIANT for him coz its urgent. So being the good daughter, I just have to go. I was drenched even before entering GIANT coz it was raining and I forget to bring my umbrella. Done with my shopping and found myself home by 6.15pm. So i decided why not meet them up for dinner. I assume they wont be long as in after play they can straight away meet me and we go lepak and eat.
I guess I was so wrong about it peepz. I thought by making myself presence for dinner would at least make up for not attending the play thingy. So by the time I was out of my home, I already knew Im down with FLU because of earlier drenched. But i still go, coz it is not yet serious. So by 7.30 and so, i have already reached clementi and i understand that you all are not super heroes that will fly straight to clementi to just meet me. So i walk around, one shop after another and till i ended up with no shop to go in after that. So by 8+ I asked all your whereabout and my heart really drop when I got to know you all still at NUS.
How long am i suppose to wait again this time round? One hour for you guys or two? Hey, maybe you guys never notice something about me. I just got a thing to do with punctuality. I mean Im a person who is on time. You give me that time, I make sure I will be there on time. Even if im late for a minute, I will feel so bloody shit wrong to whoever I made a date or appointment with.
So, who got the blow when Im mad at that point of time? It was Fz and Ira. Poor them. I really blew my top at them and keep asking them WHY AM I BORN TO BE WITH THIS PUNCTUALITY THINGY IN MYSELF? Why I cant be like any other typical girls who will always be late and feel not guilty about it?
I guess it is not the first time. I know I shouldnt bring things up. But I guess I should to let things all out at this point of time and to let you all know how I felt about certain things and we all get over it. Remember my birthday? Our first meet up? You all remember how long I got to wait? I have to wait for people on my birthday! Its not 15min or 20mins. Its more than that. I was already so upset than piss off. More of me wanted to go home and abandone the whole idea on that day BUT i dont know why there is just this one soft spot of me not to disappoint my friends when they already at first disappointed me.
My bf called me slenger. He dont understand why Im so stupid to still bother about such things. I told him I dont know why too. . .
So peepz, the only solution right now is that, maybe plan beforehand as in including your travelling journey and all before stating the time of meeting between us in the future. Seriously, if you guys tell me to come at this time or that time, I will be on time. SERIOUSLY. And if i really know myself that I will never be able to make it. I will tell you guys straight and be stubborn over it. Remember the joggin thingy Fina and Hid had and you both asked me along. I really pull myself out? Coz I know I surely couldnt make it and thats why I decided to just meet u all up for breakfast.
Or you want the arrangement as such you said 2pm. But I will be there only half an hour later or one hour later den the arranging time. Is that how you all think? I am not sure you know. . .
Last time, my biggest fight with Ira was about her being late almost 80% of her time with me. I really exploded at her and I stay away from her for quite some time. And I dont want the same thing to happen to us somehow.
I apologised if I wrote anything that made anyone of you unhappy.
Maybe on the bright side, You guys still enjoy yourself last night. Good to hear that. So, have a good day. . .
Voicing Out @ 8:49 AM
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