something i wrote a loooong time ago. just thought i'd share with y'all.

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I am thinking of my dream guy. Knowing my reputation, or maybe not, he will befriend me first. He will spend some time to know me and let me know him. As a friend, he will ask me out for lunch or anything to do with food. We will talk over our lunch. Then I will start to daydream about him as more than a friend, because he 'fits' the qualities I want. When he thinks the time is right, (like my bdae...) he will 'sound' me. I will be so touched by the gesture. Of course, depending on the situation, I might say yes straight away or think about it first. If I like him, I'll say yes. But since he's my dream guy, of course I'll say yes! Then we'll go out together. I'd love to just sit at CCK park and talk. Oh wait. I have to tell my best friends first. They'll be so excited. Hopefully. So maybe we can double-date. With Ima & Fz. (note: y'all haven together yet hor F&H) Or maybe not. I'll have to introduce him to my best friends. That's because he's my dream guy. Haha.

So we'll do stuff together. We will vow not to put our friendship on the line. Meaning we're not gonna do anything to jeopardize our friendship and also our friendship with other people. So maybe this is the one I've been waiting for. So that makes him 'the one'. Which means, he'll propose. Oh damn that would be so wonderful. Just imagine. It's gonna be so unexpected. He might be like suddenly down on his knee.

If he knows me, either from me or other people, he should know that I want the evnt to be a romantic one. My version would be to bend down on one knee, take out a box, open it up, show the ring to me, wait for my gasp, then pop the question. "I've waited all my life to do this. Hidayah, will you marry me?" (note: time pass. i grow. perceptions have changed. i want more! haha!) And I'll have tears in my eyes. And I'll nod my head. Then he will offer me his towel or tissue. And we'll set a date for him to meet my parents. Oh wait, I haven't said something. If it helps, he could come up with a creative idea of proposing. Because I want to remember that moment all my life.

Yeah then we'll meet each other's parents. They'll hopefully give the blessings. Then we'll get married. Then...oh forgot to tell my best friends. Must tell my best friends about the proposal. They'll be very-very excited. Then we're married. Right? Yup that's where I stopped. We're married. He'll do the best things to me. It will help if he knows how to cook. (note: he really has got to know how to cook. i'm a bad cook. i'm a better baker. haha!) I'd love to have breakfast in bed on Sunday. I'd love for him to continue working. And for him to understand my tempers. And be able to control me when I eed to. And console me after he scolds me. He'll say its for my own good. And I'll say sorry. We'll make up...do something we like...

I want to be happy. Happy forever with my guy. And now I'm waiting for my guy. (AND STILL WAITING. HAHA!)

yup...someone's been bugging me to blog...so i thought i'd put this in. i kinda just went through it just now. the diary has a lot of important events that happened that should be recorded down. im a sucker for dates. i'm the typical girl. special days must be commemorated. but anyway, JJ was 1 year 2 days old when i wrote this. interesting right? this is like...almost 2 years back. it's when i started JC. how interesting life can be. *sigh*

just to let y'all know, some parts of me has changed, with regards to this diary entry. but some parts still remain. go figure.

and for the men in this blogging zone, sorry to make y'all read this. HAHA!