:: TIRED ::

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kinda reminds me of my grandfather...

To Raii

:: To Raii ::

Im having a hard time getting in touch with you

Which hp no are you using? New or Old?

Im sorry that I couldnt be there to listen to you

nor asking whtr you are okay or not (Coz I duno my sms get tru or not)

Be strong, patience and its just HIS time to go.

IT will happen to all of us.

Some day..

My Grandpa in the news

Hi everybody. This is my grandpa if you guys are interested to know. It was on the 2nd page of Berita Harian on last Monday or Tuesday. Sorry if I haven't been active these days. Too much things happening at once. Before i say anything, i wanna say thanks for all your support these past few days. These days were really trying for me. Anyway, he lived to a ripe old age of 84, and we are all thankful for it. His presence was required in all my family's meetings. That's cos even though he was quiet throughout, he was as in the saying 'diam diam ubi berisi'. Is that right hid? Haha... He was the head of the family. He left behind 16 children of his own, (a lot eh?) and countless of grandchildren. I'm one of them. Can be said I was one of the closest grandchild to him, probably because my house and atuks's house was just a few blocks away. So I used to go there a lot, and he would disturb me by tapping my shoulder, then acting innocent. Or he would always amaze me whenever i went there, coz he always had a sweet, a chocolate, or something in his hand, and he would give me. Even when ive grown to be a big guy, he still did give me... That's my most vivid memory of him. Also, that he's very wise. I'm sad, but i force my tears not to fall, because he would be sad too, and i want him to pass on being happy. I saw him on thursday evening, at that time he was already unconscious, but still alive. He had a stroke, his right side paralysed. But still alive. And that's the last I saw him breathing. Went for NDP rehearsal as per normal on Saturday. We finished packing and got ready to go home by 2am. I didnt feel like going home at 2am, though wanna stay there till morning came, but a friend drove me to Clementi, from there I took cab so it would be cheaper. I reached home almost 3am. Around 6 plus, my mum woke me roughly saying, "Get ready quick! Grandpa just passed away!" Immediately I woke up with my head splitting and got dressed within 2 mins. Took cab directly to SGH and he was lying there very still. Tears fell, but quickly I wiped them away. After that i felt very weak and lethargic, mentally drained, that even during the burial, was sad, but too tired to cry... Sorry for saying all this things now... I go now...

...Raii...

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. "

Love

IMA

[Im.Heavily.Broken]

:: Condolences ::

:: Condolences ::

On behalf of orangey,

our condolences to Qiby for the lost of someone you loved.

Stay strong and have lots of patience.

We are all here for you

anytime, anywhere and anyHOW!

:)

Lots of Love,

Ima

this is hyd's update.

1- if i don't hate my brothers already, i hate them now. i know, i know. evil intentions here. but what the heck. im furious. and no, i will not put the blame on myself. because it's not like i noticed my wallet has been touched. what would you do if you see ur stuff at the same place where u left it? u wouldnt touch it, would you? you would have the confidence that everything is still intact. i soooooooo wanna scream, and cry and bash smtg, but i cant. im almost 20, and matured young adults should know how to control their anger towards a 3 year old. if u guys havent guessed what im talking about by now, then crack ur brains further. ha ha. oh right, blabber and blabber and i never say what happen. thank you for losing my ez-link card jj. thank you for probably throwing my card out the window. dun think i dunno, because i saw u throw things out the window before, so i have no doubts that u did the same to my card. now i have no bus pass. now i have to use the normal ez-link. now i have to search for extra finance. do you know that it's $21 to make a new card? dammit. lucky thing though, is that whatever value remaining in my card and the balance from my bus pass will be refunded. thank god for that. otherwise i'd scream my head off even more because my $$$ burn just like that. grr....look at me. pissed at a 3 year old who is not even home. grr....i can cry i tell u.

2- something is wrong with my thigh muscles. coz i get this tight pain thingy. macam cramp. which is like "ow" if u get what i mean. i was limping lah. the muscles felt so tight. i must have done something wrong.

3- i may have lost weight last week, but i may have gained it back this week because i ate rice everyday before i go work. which is good, because i dun get bad hunger pangs at work. but its bad coz i eat evryday. oof. so now i have to workout again, which i dun mind. soccer anyone???? i want soccer boots.....not the spikey one...the one for street soccer...k nvm...i'll buy it myself. see, i just got myself the brown shoes like one month ago and here i am wanting another shoe. THAT'S IT! discovery moment. i am like evry other woman. i have a fetish for shoes!!! wakaka!!!

4- i start my new work next week. ARGH!!!!! scared scared scared......first attempt at office job.

5- does anyone know i have blood stuck in my huge toe? yeah, and its going to go black. sis said can be infection. argh!!!! k, later put oil. and no, its not infection. it was due to the soccer game.

6- hey i never tell y'all bout the soccer. i know i bored fyn to death when i told her. niwae, i played defense. fun seh. if i dare get dirty, i would have slide here, slide there. but no lah. so my tackles were...more...pushy. haha! oh and i said sorry to my opponent everytime i pushed her. know why? scared i kena beaten up after the game. because the opponent this one not school kids. they're like a bunch of....hmm...well they're scary. oh, macam gangster.

7- er...what else to update? i want boots....i want boots....oh shit i have to get ready! argh!!! why am i perpetually late? sheesh!!!!

::Ima Updating::

::Ima Updating::

Today is a SATURDAY~

Im left with I duno know how many days more.

What I am going to do today?

I am going to go out meet my dear

I am going out to buy the STRAIT TIME to find more JOBS!

I thought I am the only one who is counting down like mad.

I found out my friend has a blog too (to be precise LIVEJOURNAL)

And yeah, he is counting down too and dying there too.

I am praying hard that more calls come in for me about all those applications I had.

*PRAY*

You all also pray for me okay.

Thanks Guy!

When I have my first permanent job.. I will treat you all someday okay!

yeah.. I am thatttttttt NICE till to a point I dun mind being broke as long as people are happy.

YAwnnn.. I think I need to clean up my room...

TATA

HYD..RAII.. PLEASE UPDATE!

just for ima who's bugging us to update..


ya la you all. so free yet cannot update. see la what happens.. our blog stagnant since i dont know when. ok la. here's my share of the update. this is basically what i did today. i know hid's out at johor to collect her baju rayer. while ima is i dont know doing what at home or outside. haha. so i thought i get a bit more motherly by doing some baking. chey. motherly eh? no la just kidding. so as planned, i bought my stuff to make it. guess what i made? ...... THATS RIGHT!!! brownie. yum rite? nah not really. cz i kinda failed a little. hahahaah. so what happened this time? well for your info, this would be considered my second attempt and both failed. but first one failed miserably. fortunately the second one was still edible. here's some pics.

brand of product i use. i cant remember what i use last time. i think i use the blue one. well... try only no harm. and hid i want the recipe that starts from scratch. i die die want to pass this. hahah.

all done and baking in the oven.

the outcome. look at the top part.. its BLACK!!!!!!!!!! i dont know what happened. too hot? too long? i also dont know.

and the okay la pic to show you how it looks like after i shave the top part with additon of some other stuffs. verdict?


1st bro: this is not brownie! this is blackie! its nice but its HARD!
2nd bro: taste can pass but presentation ZERO!


overall? i think i suck cz cmon la of course the taste is nice cz its not i do one ma! ahahaha.. i mean its instant ma. yup.. this is for those people to see la. its not bad la. i told my sweetheart and it was so nice of him to comfort him by saying that all my cooking will get an A+. awww.. should bring some for him to try! muahhahahahhahaah! so happy? i did some baking k? fina masak ar! ok la.. i shall try and try and try.. cz the only way i can satisfy a guy is through his stomach (correct not the way i write it?). so i gotta learn my stuff so my hubby can be happy in the future. hahahhahahahahahahha..


ok thats it.. BYE! mwahs..


FYNA LAH!

NDP!

And So I went for the NDP family day yesterday with Ira.
We had our good time catching up with each other.
We love the parade segment the most!
We love the fancy drills!
We love the Number One Uniform!


Kenangan babes!
Teringat time me and Ira wore the Number One Uniform during our NPCC days!
I even meet Qiby coz I know he is on duty right for NDP.
I found out the whole thing was a free seating. So we followed the crowd and ended up at the WEST section of the stadium! Hahaha! And it was near Qiby duty post lah!
Orrgghh.. He actually came up lahh. to just see meee... Awwwwwwww. . . Haha!





To me, the whole thing was a mess seh. I mean the whole performance. I couldnt figure out wat the kids doing or the people are performing. I only understand the parade segment, I enjoyed the RED LIONS and I enjoyed the Air segment where all the aeroplane and apache fly over us. POWER BABE!! !!


NPCC meeting was a crap. I shalll nt elaborate any further.
Haha! K, I practically enjoyed myself yesterday! I wish I could see more firework!




Love, Ima

Orangey People

Im blogging while at work. I got no mood to do work.
I just want to curl up like prawn in bed and sleep.
The weather so beautifully nice!


I had a dream I cut my hair short last night!
Geezz.. haha! But for your info peepz, I am not cutting it at all till I get ********.
PEACE


27 more days okay to ending.
Any of you all got lubang work for me to apply
Now I know why yesterday I was so emotional distorted the whole day.
:)


Stickychewychocolate.crave.crave.sweettreats.countingdown.27days.

weekend.NDPpreview.Meeting.NPCC.missing.Orangey.VIVOCITY.

application.job.moving.on.pizzahut.sing.dance.sleep.wakeup.soccer.

halftime.sleep.raining.frogsandtadpoles.wet.notebook.lunch.bread.

milo.hot.cecherfyna.soccerhyd.love.sunflower.6pm.sleep.now.Period.

then.money.moremoeny.needmoney.shopping.hatebooks.how.engaged.

marriage.when.Ring.love.where.SLEEP.chocolate.drop.milkshake.high.

polarbear.science.graduation.sadness.NVM! :)


K..lots of rubbish from IMA!

had a great day

first and foremost, i would like to apologise for the previous entries by me. haiz.. i was just carried away i guess. i needed to let it out on something. well i would like to say sorry a million times to everyone. but i like the song though. im sorry i worry some people..


and dear i think you dont have to worry cause i remember everything that you told me. i am not insecure eventhough other people think that something is wrong the fact that you are like that. i just need you to tell me honestly if you are having something. i trust you and no one else about us. cos' you gave me the confidence, told me the words, made me believe and i shall continue feeling the same way. you dont have to worry. i hope what happened be a lesson for us and that we'd be better for the future. i love you..


secondly, can i laugh first? haahaahaahahahahaah.. i went to school today. it was fantastic. the students are just so adorable. especially the primary 1s. i'd love to meet up with you guys and tell you about it face to face. its so cool. hahaha. meet up? hahahaha.. so far, im loving it. i dont know about secondary school lar.. i hope it wont be so hard. cos' when i went to the upper primary class, i was quite bored. haahah. the p1s are super cute, friendly and all. some are scared of me though. and then recess, i was greeted and all that. they called me teacher.. although once, the teacher intro me as ms khilfina and the students went, 'good afternoon ms.......' hahahahahha.. 'you can call her ms fina'. then they continued.. its super cute. haiz. bigger boys and girls are not that cute rite? man.. its ok.. not too late to drop to primary track. but i doubt i'll be doing so cos' then i cant teach chemistry rite? oh well see how it goes tomorrow. got contact time seh tomorrow. miss you guys. hahaha... i end 630 everyday. sian. next week la we go out.


there is some kind of event this friday. dont know if im involved. hope im not. *begs* my feet hurts. im wearing orange shoes tomorrow. hahaha!!


miss fyna

WOW!

:: WOW! ::

Update jugak korang eh.

Well..ima been up to nothing.

Im looking forward to this Saturday NDP Preview which Im going with bestie!

HAHA! Her brother on duty and so got free tix and since the mum do not want to go,

she have asked me along and I hope nothing come in our way on that day.

If not, I can just drag her to ORCHARD. I need a new pair of 'ballet' shoe. Keke!

I JUST FEEL DESPERATE FOR JOBS!

Can?

I just want that position in NUS under the ARTS Faculty Dept.

Grrr.. I want to work in GOVT. basically! I want I want I want!

By closing a deal with Govt, it will help me cover 1/3 of achievening

my ULTIMATE dream/goal!

SERIOUS LAH GUYS..pray for me okay?

Im going to submit the application to NUS by end of this week.

I hope my kak long will help me.

(as in recommend me for the job)

I am feeling so DESPERATE!

GOD, calm me down plz?!

MUACKS!

I miss fast food!

you are not alone, you will never be alone, you shall never be alone. i know im like the dumb blonde whenever it comes to these kind of problems, but i hope u meant it in a good way when u said thanks. this is really not my forte, i dunno how to solve. i wish u had contacted me when u were feeling pissed. i could have dropped the non important stuff and run to you. or, at least, give u a call to make sure ure ok. u got us worried darling. well, hope everything's settled. and if u ever feel pissed again, just call me, k? we'll meet for coffee. or whatever. i miss y'all.

as some might have already known, im not feeling all too well these days and i took a one week off from work. at first it was for fun. but perhaps its just to chill. then im going back to work for 4 weeks before settling down for school once again. yupz. ok people, i really do miss y'all. catch up soon. take care. here's a *hug* to chase all the blues away. toodles darlings. and tataz gentlemen, if u're still reading this.

060706: PORTUGAL VS FRANCE

i still think germany will win the world cup due to the 12th player factor, the home ground. go ballack!!! ima, do u even know michael ballack plays for germany and his jersey no is 13? huh huh huh? hehe...its not everytime u get to see good ol miss hyd talk abt soccer, ok. go deco! go ronaldo! go porto!!!

Losing Grip! - avril lavigne..


Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away? Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare That's when I decided


Why should I care 'Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip And I'm in this thing alone


Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case Everything wasn't okay
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare That's when I decided


Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes Open up wide


Why should I care 'Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone


Why should I care 'Cuz you weren't there
when I was there I was so alone


Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care
We're not going anywhere
Why should I care 'Cuz you weren't there
when I was there I was so alone


Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care We're not going anywhere

P.I.S.S.E.D


whats the point of a girlfriend/boyfriend/relationship:


if you dont know whats more important
if you dont appreciate each other
if you keep things from each other
if you dont know each other
if you dont bother to comfort the other when he's/she's down
if you blame the other for everything that has gone wrong
if you dont care what the other has to say
if you dont think of the other person


i only have one thing to say. FUCK!